One great weakness of me is my tear ducts are super active. So when I'm sad or feeling emotional, I'd cry easily. And I've been tearing quite a lot recently, because I keep looking back, and I keep missing those who have parted from me physically. I miss Lina and I miss my grandpa too. Sometimes I really feel like the whole world is crashing down because those missings have been so overwhelming that I guess, I just cannot handle it. But after calming down, I know I've got to move on with life because time doesn't stop for me, for anyone. I wish there's a way for me to let you know how dear you mean to me, but on the inside, I know you know how much I love you so. I can't keep crying and feeling sad and disheartened and feeling this overwhelming tears in my eyes all the time. I really need to get stronger. Coping with death isn't easy at all...and the hardest part is when the bottled up misses for you have been so much that, it felt like a blow coming all at once, right straight into my face.

I'll be strong I promise myself I'll be. Got to be.

Heads up.

This song is sad to start with, but...the ending sounds very inspirational. And it makes me feel stronger somehow