Was viewing Lina's videos with sis last night, right before we slept. And I burst out into a mess of tears and fears. We really miss her so much. And these weeks have been exceptionally tough when I think of lina, our cutesy little pie. The physical separation is just so painful, at times I recall and I'd just quietly tuck the sorrows aside but at times, like now, I think of you and all I want to do is to cry and lament all the bottled-up feelings in me. I miss you and how do I feel better from this? I miss grandpa too. And I don't know...Having been to deal with the losses of them have just been so overwhelming and taxing at times.

But I'm not complaining, because, only thinking of you both makes me feel that you're still here with me, always and forever.

I'll get better, again.