It's 430am now and I'm still awake. I'm tired actually. And I shall sleep soon. But before that, it's been a happy-sad day. I find myself drifting along the bittersweet emotion. It's bitter, because the whole idea of not having Lina physically here with us anymore causes so much heartache every single time. I miss you so much and no words can describe. I thought I wouldn't be teary on the 7th month you left but I was wrong. Streams down my eyes a few times today and I can't help it when I think about you; how much I miss you and us. Whatsapped my sister today and we both shared alot about lina and I'm really glad that I have my sister's companion in these tough times. Because we both know how much it hurts.

On another note, I'm so happy to see Lil's bag of medicine left intact in the kitchen when I got home just now. It's part of the memories left behind by Lina and we really want to keep them. So glad it's still around..

Just spent 5 minutes talking to Lina baby in her cute photo, and it's always comforting and fulfilling to do this because it makes me feel like you're right next to me. Despite me ending up in tears again, I'm happy because I got to share with you all the ups and downs of late and how much the family misses and loves you :)

My eyes are really burnt but it's time to wrap up the sadness and push on with whatever's left for this semester. I know Lina would want to see me happy too. I love you lina baby, always.

Sweet dreams.